A hope..

It's a friday night again.. why my every friday seems so heavy feeling to me.. i'm also not sure whether they are sadness or happiness.

But it was a mixture of both.. sometimes i feel like going wild on friday night, sometimes i feel like being into the other way.. but in the end, i'll be thinking why i will do so just now ? why i will feel that way just now ? what is the main reason that make me feel to do so just now.. ? and i can't find the answer, then ended up music accompany me to get rid of it.. there's just something i've been missing.. maybe someone..? i really got no idea about that..

i've been a quiet person since i step into my new life in tasmania.. but sometimes, i really wish if there's a person that i can talk and share to.. i've really tried and tried many times to approach to anyone that i can talk and share to.. although there's many people that i've gone through.. but in the end, i realize that she's still the last person i mean..

and it seems to be a long time since that night.. even through few years, whenever i'm up or down, she'll be the last person that come to me.. and it's unbelievable that my belief on her till now is still so strong.. although it's an illusion.. but the feeling is just so nice.. and happy.. but i know the only thing i can do now, is to try every single day in my life.. and i really hope that some day.. some day.. everything will come to me..