The Easter Break

The first day of my Easter break..

Thought of waking up on 830am to wash my clothes earlier, but ended up woke up two hours later, haha. Thought today will gonna be a cold and windy day again, but luckily the mighty sun appears ! I think thats the first time all my clothes can be dry in one day, because it's rare to get this kind of hot sun. So,ended up the balcony full of clothes hanging around, and it actually looked likes a clothes market, haha

It's 3pm, while i'm thinking of a new meal to cook for tonight's dinner, i saw chun hoe playing Big 2 all by himself ! i guessed he must be too boring playing DOTA all the time, so i asked him, then he said that playing in this way can train our mind.. then i was like huh?? it was funny when you saw him playing all by himself, hahaha.

It's 7pm. My plan for the 1st day of easter break's dinner is.... maybe i should name it as " satay belacan rice "hahaha. The ingredients are : belacan soup, two fried eggs with curry powder, slices of chicken ham together with ikan bilis cooked with satay paste ! It took about 30 minutes for me to finish everything.. The belacan soup's taste was weird.. but part of it taste liked prawn mee soup.. so im thinking maybe next time i should put some dry prawn.. but the belacan soup's taste really weird, ahahah. But i like the satay paste ikan bilis with chicken ham.. although taste abit salty.. but it was a improved one ! hahaa.

From the first day of cooking till now, i found out that actually cooking is interesting, and my skill is improving everytime i try to cook new meal, haha. Now, i can add one more ability into my profile, "a guy that got cooking skill" ! hehe..

Now, the first day of easter gonna ends.. i feel that time passes very fast here.. everyday, especially at night,after everything has done.. i'll still feel that there's something missing in my days... i think it must be the alone thingy again.. if there's a person that i can share and talk to.. maybe i'll not feel that way.. but i know the only thing i can do is to try everyday in my life..

Final Year Project

Two more days,im gonna to face the very last of my final year project- poster presentation which i've dreamed and ambitious to make it very good one before this last semester started. But, it was not a good one at all, it's totally a rubbish project work. I keep on asking myself,why i will choose such title, why.. and now im really still in trouble and stuck half way in my project,while the everyone of all the other project students have their actual design after the final report..i dare to say that i'm the only one that really dont' have a actual design yet. This title is really hard,tough,complicated,calculation also never learn before,requires degree study also,and im just a diploma student,how i wish if someone can understand what i'm handling now. Beside to handle all this project stuff, and not to forget that im an emo-guy who needs someone to support me by my side, but.. my world is not as simple and ordinary as you all think.. everyone is doing well,but not me. I'm not doing well and not deserved well on everything where i supposed to be..is hard to explain..is really hard..and now each of them has their own life..left me alone to face the unmeaningful days of my own world.. but i will still try my best to find a solution for my project..while my world beside project, i think i can only describe through this lyrics by nan quan mama.

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我听雨滴 期待让人越来越沉溺
谁和我一样 等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪 一个人好累
怎样的雨 怎样的夜 怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴 其实
没有我你分不清那些 差别 接近还能多一些
别说你会难过 别说你想改变 被爱的人不用道歉

看著你一整个晚上 为了他的细心的打扮
还常常问我 穿哪件衣服 可以比较挑他的喜欢
我只是你诉苦的对象 哭累之后可休息的地方
我在你心里 到底是有没有 一点重量 泪融化了妆
是他给的伤 我却只能在一旁 忍不住的看 好朋友模样
用来隐藏对你的情感 连大声爱我都不敢讲 泪融化了妆
是他给的伤 连常常放手都不管 谁叫我爱上 只是回头望
你那一张连一丝笑容 也都不属於我的脸庞 真的很伤
他一句抱歉你就原谅 在电话里笑的很灿烂
你连句谢谢也没有对我讲
转身就忘

Fridays..

Friday..is not normal..but it lives with fun..revolution..insane..desperately..abnormal..yet..it means alot..alot..

This is a song where it could describe the Friday i meant..

My inside all turn to ash so slow under the way inside it's collapse,so cold..
a black winter built away from side another darkness of the day that night..
and the clouds above move closer looking so dissatisfied..
but the heartless wind kept blowing blowing i used to be my own protection but not now..
cause my path had lost direction somehow black winter kill away from side..
and the ground lift look colder as they put you down inside..
so now you're gone and i was wrong i never knew what it was mine..
to be alone..